I am so sick of this. I'm sick of being sick and not being able to know what it is, I'm sick of not having any money, I'm sick of having such a low image of myself, I'm sick of trying to enjoy my job when I just... hate it. I hate organizing now, and I don't know why. It's just so draining and I don't have the energy to do it anymore. I'm sick of my car breaking down all the time, I'm sick of being goddamn single, I'm sick of going online to hook up with older guys who find some thrill in being able to fuck someone half their age just so I can feel like I'm attractive. I am so. fucking. sick of it.